I really miss him. And all these rom-coms aren't making it any better =\ *sigh*

It's July...

And you know what means... =]

My Birthday on the 10th haha.

Also I find it random that AMTV is playng Britney Spears "I'm A Slave 4 U" right now haha.

Since I know no one really reads my livejournal, it's safe to say how I'm truly feeling.

A minute ago, I cried... I don't know why but I know it's not over.

I think it's just cause there are so many things going on right now. Everything just keeps building up. Actually right now, I'm crying.

I'm just so tired of everything. I want it to go away. It hurts a lot.

I would so go lesbian for Ashley Greene. She's so everything, she can look cute or hot or classy. EVERYTHING! GGGAAAHHH... Man... haha



A lot of fan girls ask the dudes to bite their necks but I'd rather ask Ashley Greene.
haha...

Everytime I read Meliza's blog, I have this strange urge to blog about my life or day which ever haha. I miss blogging but I get so lazy =(

So let me sum up what has happened this past week...

...Ready?

I feel like if I post something on tumblr now he'll know. Sure I can put it on private but it won't feel the same. Or if I post something that has to deal with the other person, it'll seem like it's a counteract to their blog.

That's why I'm glad for my original blog place, LiveJournal.

So yesterday, I went to Adelisa's cotillion. Prior to that event, I was pretty excited to go and stuff but on the day of I really didn't feel like going at all. I just felt like going to Christina's birthday party instead. At least I didn't have to dress up for that haha. But before the whole cotillion, Danielle and I went to Angelica's grad party. Awesome food!! Then got back and Meliza, Danielle and I got ready. We were pretty much late haha but it didn't matter we didn't miss anything. Though we were still in a rush, I even did my make up in the car. It was pretty good for someone doing their makeup in the car haha.

Now Adelisa's cotillion, we basically dance the whole time haha. It was hilarious cause it was like Danielle, Carla, and I were basically the last people to dance. OH! Also we met this pretty cool guy name Kevin G. haha... Then we were debating on which after party we wanted to go to.

We decided to just go to JayR's party. It wasn't crackin' at first then when JayR came back with more people the party started livin' up more. Then a few people went out to smoke a blunt, I followed just to see this because I've never seen how these work before haha. I'm a curious person. I'm really PROUD to say I DID NOT DO IT. Same with Danielle, she wanted to but I saved her life yo! We got back in the garage and they set up Beer Pong. And the drinking commenced, everyone basically drank except for Monique and I. A few people kept asking me to drink but I was nah. Not really worth it after seeing how it really effects people. Also I offered to drive home cause Meliza wanted to drink, also she looked like she was having a bad time in the beginning. I made a promise to myself I wouldn't do any kind of crazy party stuff.

So it was 2:30 am and Meliza and I decided to leave now cause there really was nothing else to do at the party other than chill or drink or smoking. And I wasn't gonna do 2 of the 3. I was basically chilling there with Chang while everyone else was partying the night away. Aw Meliza is so cute/funny/entertaining/talkitive when she's tipsy haha. When we got home my dad kinda sorta yelled at us for being out so late. I guess that my fault for not informing them how late I'd be home. Oh but before getting home we went to Jack and the Box, cause Meliza was hungry and she said to take advantage of her haha, so I got something to eat too.

Samantha then called me saying Danielle was hella drunk and she didn't know what to do with her. So I offered my home to her, but she didn't get here until like 6 in the morning! Man I was so tired... I didn't wake up until like 1 pm. But I'm always here for my friend no matter what.

I think the WORSE part of this whole night was when I was driving a HUGE spider was on my side and it was crawling EVERYWHERE! It freaked me out so bad.

More like GOODBYE MONEY! Man... prom made a TOTAL dent in my account. It's so sad to see it. Flippin' $269 now when I had like $700. ARGH! It like really feels like a stab in the chest whenever I think about it. But then again Chris still owes me $73 and Ian owes me $25. still I've spent like over $500 on frikkin' prom! Man where did all that money go...

Iono why I'm thinking about this now when I really should work on my rough draft for my final... Man epic fail on working on my finals. And to top it all of I'm really lazy to do anything right cause I'm so sleepy and I really need to get off my butt and start doing what I NEED to be doing.

Today, the MTV Movie Awards is showing tonight. And you know what that means...
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Sneak peeks from HARRY POTTER & NEW MOON!!!
dude even though I'm so quiet and sleepy, I'm jumping like a crazy fan girl on ecstasy on the inside right now!!

Plus I went on a Mcfly slash video rampage for the past hour. God I miss those boys and their slashyness *sigh* It always puts a smile on my face whenever I see them spread their love toward each other. Thus making them my #1 favorite band =]

Two weeks since my last entry here...















...fail.

How SEXY is this poster?
I basically melted into the floor during 5th period haha

DANG. It's been HELLA long since I updated here. Telling about how my day goes and what not.

So what can I say, I can't really remember haha.

Well last week hhmmm...

Wednesday
Was gonna take senior pic but didn't get the chance cause they took it hella quick when we arrived. Tag along with Samantha, Carla and Danielle to go to the alteration lady for Danielle to pick up her dress. Picked up Melissa and Friskoe. Monquque dropped me back off at the school parking lot. Went home, chilled in bed. Ugh I hate being stuck at home. Stupid Swine Flu.

Thursday
Went to Michael's for boutonnières and corsages. So cheap, though it is fake flowers haha but hey it last longer =] Went to LMC, discussed with a counselor. Hit up In n' Out, dropped Carla home then Angelica. Saw her frikkin' crazy hot heels. Then my car frikkin' broke down. FML. haha Danielle's mom came, called AAA. Got it to work, went home at like 7pm. I was at Angelica since 4 or 5. Dang.

Friday
Got a new battery for my car. Went to Panera, tagged along in Justins car. CLAM CHOWDER FRIDAYS! Picked up my car, went to Michael's

It has been exactly 2 weeks since I last post here. I have been on the Twitter hype haha.

Man so many connection, Myspace, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, LiveJournal, and Youtube haha. What else could be there?

So I got in a arguement with my mom earlier today.

I'm gonna go and apologize to her. I feel like it's the right thing to do.

peace and goodnight livejournal.

I'll post sooner now =]

*Sigh* aaahhh... My soaps. Even though it's a little or even A LOT cliche, I love watching it. Well at least the storyline I'm following haha. LUKE & NOAH! I swear they are the cutest couple on daytime television. Also there's this other character name Casey Hughes and I FRIKKIN' LOVE HIM! He reminds me of Jacob in a way, the buffness and how funny he is. Well I like the new Casey Hughes, he's much hotter haha.

That is what has been happening the past week haha. I'm like so hooked haha. Even though I love hanging with my friends after school, really I want to go straight home and watch my show. Dude when I get hooked on something, I GET HOOKED... Like really I stay up late cause I keep procrastinating on stop watching it and go to sleep.

Anyways what has happen so far, I got my dress, got my shoes, have enough money to buy both mine & chris' tickets for my prom, head-dress as well. Now tomorrow I'm going to concord mall with my girls to get an earlier appointment at the MAC there, and maybe scam around for more jewelry. Then go to American Canyon or at least Baldo's to meet up with Collin for Carla to give him the bid. Aw but I kinda wanted to stop by Walnut Creek to get a Betsey Johnson bracelet. Oh well maybe next time...

Anything exciting that happened during the pass week, well can't really think of it right. OH! I saw Chris twice in a row last week. Went to Santa Cruz on Saturday with the fam bam, Chris was there with his family too but we never told each other for some reason haha. Sunday: Easter, went to my aunties house, ate a lot of jello eggs then watched my soaps haha. I swear I non stopped watched ATWT for the past 5 days haha. Also took my english assesment test for LMC/DVC, got placed in English 90. And who else got it? DANIELLE! DUH! Not surprise...haha

Speaking of Danielle; so Chris' friend, Nick Ash, got Chris to call me and ask if Danille wanted to be his prom date. Of course Danielle said yes since she's not paying it haha. YEA! I won't be that alone at Chris' prom haha.

I haven't posted in a while. I'm sorry LiveJournal =/

I still love you =]

ManShorts WITH Pockets is back in my life!!!

Well... at least for 10 days. Meliza and I struck a custody deal with the help of our Judge Angelica writing down the contract. With a stamp of a sewing machine as our SEAL APPROVAL.

These ManShorts WITH Pockets are AMAZING!! *sigh* God how I've missed you...

This is why I love them so much.

I don't mean to sound blunt, but today was horrible in its on way.

First we didn't even have a REAL LEGIT plan and to be honest I kind of got annoyed. So basically all we did was, I picked up Chris, went to the Antioch Mall. Chilled there for a bit, mostly roamed around. Then went to Burlington coat factory, everyone else left except for Danielle, Chris and I. We decided to go to Red Lobster cause we were hungry and it was right there. Justin then met us up there, we ate, laughed and fooled around as usual. Chris seemed to be quite isolated even though he was with us.

After saying our goodbyes to Justin, I dropped off Danielle at CostCo. So it was Chris and I left, obviously, on the way to drop him off at the Pittsburg Bart Station. On our way we had a serious talk. Well me badgering Chris for answers on what's wrong with him. In the end it was a bittersweet one I guess haha.

Now I'm home watching my soaps haha!

Like really our day was kind of pointless cause really I just wanted to go home. It was probably cause of the weather. Gloomy weather always brings me down =\

Man... its gonna be gloomy for the rest of the week...

See him tomorrow. I don't know why I'm so excited, oh wait FOR SOME REASON I'm so excited to see him! It's funny how I still get butterflies when ever I'm around him or see him for the first time of the day haha.

yea yea I'm a pansy haha. But hey I can't help it, I'm such a girl.

Where I want to be alone and be on my own paradise island and escape reality.

Really prom is getting to me. At first I thought searching for the stuff for prom will be the hardest part. HA! Totally wrong about that. It's paying all this crap for one stupid night to dress up and go out withyour friends and senior class. It's so stressful to the point that I don't even want to go to anyones prom AT ALL. Not Chris', not even my own. There are just so man things to do, to wear and espeacially to pay. Is it really worth all this stress for one shining night? For me, I don't think so.

Ok here is here is a list of stuff I need to buy:
-Dress
-Hair
-Makeup
-Shoes
-Accesories
-Ticket; mine AND Chris.
-The flowery thing that goes on a dudes tux
-My half to go to Chris' prom?

Also feeling bad and being stress doesn't mix well either. I feel like it's my fault that Meliza and Angelica won't have a date to prom =( Since Ian couldn't go that means Francis won't go cause Ian's not going. I don't know why but I feel like it's my fault.

I really want this night to be special but I don't think goig through all this stress is worth it.

Sorry.