It's been over a month since the last time I blogged here...

I wanna blog what's been going on but I'm so lazy right now to type it all down. Well first I need to summarize it cause it's been a month and a lot can happen in a month.

Well what I'm not to lazy to type down right now is that I'm gonna take Shane out on a date today haha!

MY TURN!

Haven't blogged about my day in DAYS...

I’ve been mostly reblogging =/

Anyways, what happened today? Well I skipped my English class today, ugh I feel sorta bad for my teacher for putting up with my absences aha. Teachers would already have dropped me tehehe. Went to Shane’s house instead, chilled and fell asleep for a bit. *Sigh* I REALLY like him a lot. Aw… just cuddling up and falling asleep in his arms. Well more like him falling asleep in my arms aha! He has a heavy head, just putting it out there haha. Then watched him and his brother play Madden. Picked up Danielle to go to LMC for stupid MATH! Took an exam =/ I’m gonna be surprised if I at least get a one point from that aha. Later met up with Carla, chilled in the cafeteria. Went to WingStop with Danielle and Shane, pobre Shane bought our WingStop. I felt bad but at the same time I was really hungry haha. Man, I REALLY REALLY LIKE him A LOT… Anyways chilled there for like a good hour, felt like forever though. Went back to school then library to use the computers. Carla met up with us. Shared a computer with Shane cause the other computers I tried was messed up, so I gave up aha. Somehow we ended up reading my blogs on Tumblr. EMBARRASSMENT! But he found it very cute, reading blogs about him and knowing how much I like him. He find it very reassuring. Don’t blame him to be honest, hearing how his ex treated him. And same with me, it’s very reassuring hearing his affection =) OKAY back to my day, chilled in the computer lab for a good while, then I went with Shane to the math building, so he can sign out of his hours for math lab. Aw… another cute thing he did was him letting me borrow his jacket cause it was FREEZING cold outside. Even though I already had a jacket on, he put his on top of mine and then held me in his arms while walking to math. HAHA! I was walking backwards and he was walking like a penguin, a very cute one I might add ;) Went back and watched Danielle on Facebook and playing YoVille. *Sigh* standing there with Shane’s arms wrapped around me felt really good and comfortable, I really wanted to fall asleep but couldn’t cause one we were standing up and two we were at school haha! We finally bounced and left the library, parted from Shane =( but hey I get to see him tomorrow! NEW MOON SUCKA!! AND he get’s off work tomorrow early too! On the way home, had a GOOD talk with Danielle (gave her reassurance about Swag) about our NEW guys and knowing how different they are. It’s so strange and new, that they really like us for who we really are and not just by our looks. Like they really get to know the littlest things about us. I really like it though, it’s like he really wants to get know me.

I’m really happy with him =)

Quick Blog!

Thursday:

Hung out at Shane's house, to kill time until Danielle gets out of class. Met his brothers, Mitch and Lance, and also his daddy. Helped him cleaned up his room aha, so messy! He gave me a tour around his casa, it's a quaint. So we just chilled around his room. Ha, I heard his raps tehehe... they were pretty funny.

He dropped me off back at school, drove to LMC. Stayed for a second, met up with Danielle and Prince at Popeye's. Dropped Prince off at Best Buy for his interview, was gonna drop off Danielle at Swags house but we waited in front of his house for the longest time. So we screwed it and went to WingStop. Then finally Swagga texted us back saying to come back. Dropped Danielle off at Swags then jetted off home. Ha chilled in my car for like a good 30 minutes, was so comfortable. Took a fatty nap and talked to Shane all night haha.

Friday:

Ugh, woke up kinda early yet late to go to LMC for our math hours and quiz. Picked up Danielle and walked around LMC for a bit. Then went to the testing center to see who was gonna be the corrector and what do ya know we bump into Shane getting his test corrected by that asian guy. Danielle and I hella called Shane out for taking the wrong quiz, whoops! Then we all took the same quiz, took Danielle and I a while to finish the first one cause we kept swapping notes haha. And also cause Shane help us too aha. Ha Shane took the quiz 3xs, when I was taking my 2nd one he had to leave for work. So we kissed goodbye and off he went, Danielle passed the first time. And I was stuck alone doing the quiz again for the 3rd time... FML. Passed though!

Then met up with Prince, went to Antioch mall to get his paycheck then shopped at Forever21 for a bit. We picked up Carla and headed off to Streets for Bottomless Fries! Roamed around a bit afterward, bumped into Samantha and saw Vince at work. Aw what a cutie! Went home, convienced my dad to let me watch Paranormal Activity. Meliza picked us up, went to Michaels, Princes house, Danielles then Carlas. Went to Scoops then back to Carlas. And off we went to Rave for the movie. Saw hella freedom and LMC heads haha.

Watched Paranormal Activity, SUCKED! Though the ending was just plain creepy which left me paranoid a bit. Got home at like one, got ready for bed and called Shane. Felt bad cause I always was gonna talk to Danielle and Meliza that night too but when Meliza called I was already on the phone with Shane and I felt bad... Meliza said it was alright but I still felt bad.

Well Shane and I talked on the phone very deliriously haha. You could tell we were both hella tired and/or sleepy. Aw he started telling the things he liked about me. They were cute. Then I think I fell asleep on him or he fell asleep on me. Though before when I was semi awake, he did fall asleep on me for a bit, aw was hella cute. Fell asleep with the lights on as well haha.

Saturday:

Woke up to a loud bang, which was my lolo or Abby opening my door hella loud. Most likely Abby, I'm sure. Then I checked my phone and realized I was still on the phone with Shane. Said hello to see if he was still on but I'm guessing he's phone was no where near his ear aha. So I hung up and went back to sleep. Woke up like at 11:30 and like had to sorta rush to get ready for Angelica's Tea Party. But when my parents got home, I was washing my face and my mom told me to stay home.

So now I'm at home just chillin' in the living room on my laptop right now. Still need to do my hw though... UGH! I have so much to make up!

It's nice, well he invited us to chill at his place and watch a movie. So it was Danielle, Shane and I who went, poor Carla couldn't go cause she had class. Aw...

Well we didn't do much except chill in Mannies room. Didn't start the movie til like 9 aha. I thought it was cute when I had my arm around Shanes shoulder and his head was resting on mine haha. Totally gender role switch! And also when we were sharing chips, when one of us would put a chip in our mouth and the other tries to get it by their mouth haha. I thought those were cute moments.

Also I guess he's not afraid o kiss me in front of my friends, to a which of the night annoyed Danielle for a bit. But I guess it was our faults cause the movie was starting. And I'd get annoyed too if I was in Danielle shoes.

After the movie, it was like 10:30 and Abby texted me to come home now. After saying goodbye to Danielle and Mannie, Shane and I just chilled in front of Mannies house for like a good thirty minutes or so, just standing and holding each other. I was really cold, so I cuddle with him in his coat, he looked rather dapper in it haha. Thanks Swag for the word! That's also another cute moment we shared. To be honest, I don't even remember what we talking about haha. And how I stood there for thirty minutes...

Maybe the feeling of being replaced? Jealousy?

Sometimes seeing you with all these girls kinda make me question if I like S. And that's not good cause I do like him a lot but I guess I'm not use to not having deep talks with S, cause before we use to have deep talks. I just really feel confused... I really can't please everyone, no matter who I choose.

This sucks.

I guess all I have to think about is whatever makes me happy but that sounds so selfish. And I can't do that, I'm not a selfish person. Sure I can be stingy but not selfish =\

I gave you a reason but you didn't listen!

How dare you?!

You could easily have me but you won't say anything.

Now you're going off to college and it looks like your pretty excited about the girls over there.

Circles man. Circles.

I wanna visit you at work, or at least go on another date. Not like the movies though. Comparing her and my date, hers was better...

Aw... and today, one word: Meliza =(
Three words for her: I LOVE YOU!

So I think I've come to a conclusion.

The reason I'm not so mushy and what not is probably the fact that I'm keeping my guard up, WAY up. I don't know, I've seen so many corrupted relationships that I don't ever want to experience it.

I've also realized that I mistake my fear with the uncomfortable feeling whenever I'm with you. It's just I've been hurt before and I don't want it to happen again. I really have trust issues with guys, no lie. It's been how many years and I don't really trust you all to well. With the fear I get whenever we get too close is probably a little reminder that I shouldn't let down my guard so easily, so backing away is letting my guard up again.

I feel putting this on my LJ, because with LJ, I feel like I can truly confess what I'm feeling. A lot of people I know have tumblrs and I really don't want everyone to be reading this aha.

I really miss him. And all these rom-coms aren't making it any better =\ *sigh*

It's July...

And you know what means... =]

My Birthday on the 10th haha.

Also I find it random that AMTV is playng Britney Spears "I'm A Slave 4 U" right now haha.

Since I know no one really reads my livejournal, it's safe to say how I'm truly feeling.

A minute ago, I cried... I don't know why but I know it's not over.

I think it's just cause there are so many things going on right now. Everything just keeps building up. Actually right now, I'm crying.

I'm just so tired of everything. I want it to go away. It hurts a lot.

I would so go lesbian for Ashley Greene. She's so everything, she can look cute or hot or classy. EVERYTHING! GGGAAAHHH... Man... haha



A lot of fan girls ask the dudes to bite their necks but I'd rather ask Ashley Greene.
haha...

Everytime I read Meliza's blog, I have this strange urge to blog about my life or day which ever haha. I miss blogging but I get so lazy =(

So let me sum up what has happened this past week...

...Ready?

I feel like if I post something on tumblr now he'll know. Sure I can put it on private but it won't feel the same. Or if I post something that has to deal with the other person, it'll seem like it's a counteract to their blog.

That's why I'm glad for my original blog place, LiveJournal.

So yesterday, I went to Adelisa's cotillion. Prior to that event, I was pretty excited to go and stuff but on the day of I really didn't feel like going at all. I just felt like going to Christina's birthday party instead. At least I didn't have to dress up for that haha. But before the whole cotillion, Danielle and I went to Angelica's grad party. Awesome food!! Then got back and Meliza, Danielle and I got ready. We were pretty much late haha but it didn't matter we didn't miss anything. Though we were still in a rush, I even did my make up in the car. It was pretty good for someone doing their makeup in the car haha.

Now Adelisa's cotillion, we basically dance the whole time haha. It was hilarious cause it was like Danielle, Carla, and I were basically the last people to dance. OH! Also we met this pretty cool guy name Kevin G. haha... Then we were debating on which after party we wanted to go to.

We decided to just go to JayR's party. It wasn't crackin' at first then when JayR came back with more people the party started livin' up more. Then a few people went out to smoke a blunt, I followed just to see this because I've never seen how these work before haha. I'm a curious person. I'm really PROUD to say I DID NOT DO IT. Same with Danielle, she wanted to but I saved her life yo! We got back in the garage and they set up Beer Pong. And the drinking commenced, everyone basically drank except for Monique and I. A few people kept asking me to drink but I was nah. Not really worth it after seeing how it really effects people. Also I offered to drive home cause Meliza wanted to drink, also she looked like she was having a bad time in the beginning. I made a promise to myself I wouldn't do any kind of crazy party stuff.

So it was 2:30 am and Meliza and I decided to leave now cause there really was nothing else to do at the party other than chill or drink or smoking. And I wasn't gonna do 2 of the 3. I was basically chilling there with Chang while everyone else was partying the night away. Aw Meliza is so cute/funny/entertaining/talkitive when she's tipsy haha. When we got home my dad kinda sorta yelled at us for being out so late. I guess that my fault for not informing them how late I'd be home. Oh but before getting home we went to Jack and the Box, cause Meliza was hungry and she said to take advantage of her haha, so I got something to eat too.

Samantha then called me saying Danielle was hella drunk and she didn't know what to do with her. So I offered my home to her, but she didn't get here until like 6 in the morning! Man I was so tired... I didn't wake up until like 1 pm. But I'm always here for my friend no matter what.

I think the WORSE part of this whole night was when I was driving a HUGE spider was on my side and it was crawling EVERYWHERE! It freaked me out so bad.

More like GOODBYE MONEY! Man... prom made a TOTAL dent in my account. It's so sad to see it. Flippin' $269 now when I had like $700. ARGH! It like really feels like a stab in the chest whenever I think about it. But then again Chris still owes me $73 and Ian owes me $25. still I've spent like over $500 on frikkin' prom! Man where did all that money go...

Iono why I'm thinking about this now when I really should work on my rough draft for my final... Man epic fail on working on my finals. And to top it all of I'm really lazy to do anything right cause I'm so sleepy and I really need to get off my butt and start doing what I NEED to be doing.

Today, the MTV Movie Awards is showing tonight. And you know what that means...
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Sneak peeks from HARRY POTTER & NEW MOON!!!
dude even though I'm so quiet and sleepy, I'm jumping like a crazy fan girl on ecstasy on the inside right now!!

Plus I went on a Mcfly slash video rampage for the past hour. God I miss those boys and their slashyness *sigh* It always puts a smile on my face whenever I see them spread their love toward each other. Thus making them my #1 favorite band =]

Two weeks since my last entry here...















...fail.

How SEXY is this poster?
I basically melted into the floor during 5th period haha

DANG. It's been HELLA long since I updated here. Telling about how my day goes and what not.

So what can I say, I can't really remember haha.

Well last week hhmmm...

Wednesday
Was gonna take senior pic but didn't get the chance cause they took it hella quick when we arrived. Tag along with Samantha, Carla and Danielle to go to the alteration lady for Danielle to pick up her dress. Picked up Melissa and Friskoe. Monquque dropped me back off at the school parking lot. Went home, chilled in bed. Ugh I hate being stuck at home. Stupid Swine Flu.

Thursday
Went to Michael's for boutonnières and corsages. So cheap, though it is fake flowers haha but hey it last longer =] Went to LMC, discussed with a counselor. Hit up In n' Out, dropped Carla home then Angelica. Saw her frikkin' crazy hot heels. Then my car frikkin' broke down. FML. haha Danielle's mom came, called AAA. Got it to work, went home at like 7pm. I was at Angelica since 4 or 5. Dang.

Friday
Got a new battery for my car. Went to Panera, tagged along in Justins car. CLAM CHOWDER FRIDAYS! Picked up my car, went to Michael's

It has been exactly 2 weeks since I last post here. I have been on the Twitter hype haha.

Man so many connection, Myspace, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, LiveJournal, and Youtube haha. What else could be there?

So I got in a arguement with my mom earlier today.

I'm gonna go and apologize to her. I feel like it's the right thing to do.

peace and goodnight livejournal.

I'll post sooner now =]